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Let me give you a little bit of my background. My name is Julie and I live in New Jersey. I am Jewish and love being Jewish, though it comes with some consequences when eating. I used to do gymnastics until I was 10 and ever since then, I’ve started having problems with my weight and or body image. At the age of 12, while going through puberty, my nose totally changed and made me extremely self-conscious. This led to eating more, making me chubby. In 7th grade, when I was 12/13 years old, I decided I wanted to get a nose job, which I did when I was 16. Plus, I attended a little Jewish private school and wasn’t around many guys, except for this kid who’s 2 years younger than me that I’ve been in love with for 8 years now.
Any who, I absolutely dislike my body and felt this way ever since before 8th grade (around 2008). I wasn’t in the shape to wear a bikini and it really made me depressed. I couldn’t wear those tight shirts from Hollister or Abercrombie either and that really saddened me. So the summer going into my freshman year of high school, I decided to go to “fat camp,” the one that was on mtv. Now I never saw the show so I can’t tell you how accurate it is, however, I went for 4 weeks and 4 days and lost 10 pounds, but I gained a ton of muscle. I lost 4 inches from my chest, 5 around my stomach or waist, I think 2 from my hips, 1 or .5 from my thighs each, and 1.5 from each arm. When I got home though, it was quite difficult to lose the weight. So usually when I come home from school, I stuff my face with whatever. I used to make myself pasta and I would have two bowls of that or I would eat 2 bowls of cereal. I hated going to the gym and was too lazy to do anything though I played some sports at school. I did pay attention to what I ate, but I couldn’t help it because I’m like really bad at fighting off cravings and hunger. I did play softball and when I came home it was dinner time, so I didn’t snack, but it wasn’t that great of a workout.
Ever since, I’ve been struggling with my weight. But this summer is different. I want to get in shape for my senior year of high school and I want to go into college looking healthy and fit. I’ve never had a boyfriend nor have I kissed anyone as to that’s why I’m so insecure about my body. I lack confidence, but now I’m better since I got my nose job last summer, but I don’t have the confidence that I would have if I were thinner. I am going away in August and really want to try and lose 2 pant sizes by that time, but I’m not expecting to meet my ultimate goal until possibly December of this year or January of next. I’m going to work hard even though sometimes my body is EXTREMELY lazy (another reason why I hated the gym). Sometimes I give in to my craving though and need to learn to stop. The worst is when I’ out with friends. Any advice on that one? Please don’t be afraid to message me if you have any questions. What’s yours?
